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Journal Entry: Tue Sep 22, 2009, 12:34 PM
My honeymoon with Sai is over. u_u Today I've struggled to get the right results using the brush tool, when what I wanted would have been done quickly in Painter. In the end, Sai blends two colors but it doesn't really make them interact the way my Painter IX did. It's been about a month since it died and... the shock... the grief.... it's too much.....

Well, really I'm just complaining because I'm too pussy to go download Painter XI since I'm a Windows. And on an ASUS at that. My little Eee PC would completely fry if even the lightest little bitch porn virus were to make its way into its C drive, it's so frail. Like a little mouse. u_u Don't worry little mouse, I won't let you get eaten by an owl~~

I've made a lot of journals in the last few days because I'm really paralyzed in my art right now. I'm so lost for direction I don't know what to do, I want to do something but I can't decide what. I hate my old style, I want to cast it off. I'm tired of everything in my gallery. But everything I produce in a different style is unsatisfactory, I find nothing fulfilling in the finished product. Artistically... I feel like I'm starving, like all fruit turns to dust in my hands as soon as I've picked it. I could go back to my plate of dog shit, at least it's something. But I don't want it, not at all. So I just waste my time complaining about it on the internet.

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:iconmero-ix:
I tried for so long to get used to Painter IX but just couldn't find a nice blendy brush. :< So now I use SAI because it has such a soft blend, so I find it interesting that you feel the opposite. I figure it must be my Graphire or something, maybe it lacks the sensitivity required for Painter? I dunno!

I'm sorry you're in an art funk. Not having a proper art program can really bring things down -_-
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:iconbowofanariel:
I agree. :nod: make doodles. LOTS. Something will come along. :D Don't worry. :heart:
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:iconfantastic-fetus:
As someone once said to me, but for the life of me I forgot her lovely name, practice your skills (e.g color theory, anatomy, line works, etc.) FIRST AND FOR NOW; establish your style later...since that will eventually come to you (rather) naturally when you mature, heh, or as you're studying... Then again--are you forcing yourself to create a certain type of art which is not what Alex really, really, really wants? No, your style is rather fine--young--but growing; its your emotional stability that needs editing.
Oh my, who is this little idiot talking! not a psychologis...not a wiener..oops, that is me... :( OTHER THAN THAT; you're probably under a major artist block, so enjoy the silence while it lasts. Just admit it and do not exert your fragile energy on a wall that won't easily come down---really, kick the face of your stress. Like, don't think about your style for awhile, just ART; love your ability to make doddle-life on paper!(At least the benefit of art school is that it pushes you to think about art daily HAHA) ;( Gd luck
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:iconlemming-exodus:
I feel like if I try to offer any advice here, I'd just sound really redundant. :XD:

Just remember that feeling dissatisfied with your art is a good thing because it means you're ready to move on and improve. The growing pains aren't much fun, but it's only temporary, so... KEEP ON TRUCKIN'. :I /encouragement fail
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:iconandrea-koupal:
I dunno, personally I really dig your work. But I understand the way you feel. What I try to do is study other artists' styles that I like and try to figure out what makes them appealing to me.
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:iconnoverint:
Re. Painter 11, did you try installing this patch? IIRC a lot of people have had problems with 11 not opening even after they installed it and so on, and various other bugs (though I somehow magically managed to dodge those).

I saw 'XII' and had a moment of horrible confusion, damn you
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:iconleaunoire:
I had IX, so I doubt it'd work for my old version. But if I get XI at some point, I'll keep this in mind. o_o
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:iconnoverint:
. . . Try to avoid 11 if you can, then. |: People have not had a great time with it.
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:iconleaunoire:
I'll avoid it, then! How unfortunate that Painter is always so buggy...
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:iconnoverint:
Well, I haven't had any problems with Painter personally. But yeah, 11 was a bit of a disappointment even without any bugs, because there weren't very many new features added to justify a whole new update. (And I say this as someone who bought it anyway.)

X was pretty nice, though, if you ever upgrade.
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