It hasn't been very long anyway. But you know, that won't stop me from posting a journal and then going back to not doing stuff. A journal all about MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
this shit is getting oldA lot of times I write long journal entries at the end of a bad day painstakingly detailing my deep set personal flaws - my self-absorbed nature, how I run from my responsibilities and a laundry list of other undesirable traits - but then I delete the whole thing once I remember what a bad idea that sort of thing is on the internet. I think I write them half with the intention of apologizing for myself when there's simply no apologies that can fix a worthless person, and half with the intention of somehow justifying my dickery. "Don't you see now?
This is why I did that terrible thing! I'm damaged goods! Yes, it's my fault, but I'm like this because I'm
like this." But in the end, I decided that it's better to skip the long, insipid paragraphs of not bullshit but nevertheless superfluous introspection - because they don't matter to anyone but myself. The message I wanted to impart becomes subtext under the shame I write about when it should be front and center, and it doesn't really matter
why you do what you do, just that you did it.
I'm sorry. If I caused you - anyone who's ever known me - anywhere between a day and a lifetime of disappointment or frustration, I'm sorry. My apologies became cheap when I started throwing them around so much, as if my self-depreciation was a valid alternative to the slack I didn't pick up when you were counting on me.
No matter how tenderly we handle ourselves when examining the weaknesses in our character (and to call them weaknesses is to put a gentle word over what's often very brutal self-loathing) we always come out bruised. We're unable to extol our virtues because they become so transparent in the face of our venomous parts, and then no one has any patience for their battered dignity.
big words.
Even though it's weird to put this at the end of such a melodramatic and hyphen-filled journal entry, I also wanted to say happy holidays. If you celebrated Thanksgiving, I hope you ate some bitchin' food. Enjoy this hearty helping of Mood Whiplash. I'll write more worthwhile journal entries someday.
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This journal.
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Yea... and if you don't read the rules, you won't get anything out of this.
Advertise; you don't have to but is looked up upon
and it really does help to inspire me with new ideas 
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also, quit hating yourself. your bunnies are on my wall above my computer screen and constantly remind me how small i am
Happy holidays to you, too. Also, you're coherent enough with the self-loathing to be quite bearable.Well, bearable apart from the knee-jerk reaction of "How dare you look down on yourself, you're awesome!"
But to another person, they don't see all these things and you are, to them, a very cool person. So if you feel down, at least to me you are a very cool person ;D
Midnight is apparently an appropriate time for gushing and flailing about except NOT
FREAK OUT
* n *
/I seriously kept reading just for your word choice and disregarded the negativity
I hope whatever the dickery can be fixed whole-heartedly.
Yet I'm not one who can see it really.
you should eat yourself some cornbread
that always makes me feel better
Balance is the key. <3